"I've turned into a professional coward." H.S.Thompson
So speaking of documentaries.."I am Heath Ledger." Looking forward to it.
"I fooled them. I can't do this. I'm not an actor. I shouldn't be here."
I feel this way all the time. It is interesting to run into dogmatic individuals. They really do remind me of Ezra. Yesterday I was making homemade salsa and he was (anti)helping. As I was cutting up the jalepeno he said "celery." "no its a jalepeno." "no not jalepiano. celery." "it's not celery." "yes it is." "i don't know really what this is, Ezra, what is this?" "It's celery." So I will let him go thru his life thinking jalepenos are celery. I should be here as a mother. Then again...I fooled them. I can't do this. I shouldn't be here. But I am here...with these kids I love madly. And can't afford to lose.
"I fooled them. I can't do this. I'm not an actor. I shouldn't be here."
I feel this way all the time. It is interesting to run into dogmatic individuals. They really do remind me of Ezra. Yesterday I was making homemade salsa and he was (anti)helping. As I was cutting up the jalepeno he said "celery." "no its a jalepeno." "no not jalepiano. celery." "it's not celery." "yes it is." "i don't know really what this is, Ezra, what is this?" "It's celery." So I will let him go thru his life thinking jalepenos are celery. I should be here as a mother. Then again...I fooled them. I can't do this. I shouldn't be here. But I am here...with these kids I love madly. And can't afford to lose.
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Recognition of excellence results from dedicated practice of a craft. In that practice, often we overlook our own value and real skill, and look instead at perfection, whether attainable or unattainable.
Imposter syndrome.